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Tuesday, June 21, 2005


go to my mice-base. fourth link from the top, in the top right corner of this blog space. i regret moving there like this... maybe i'll come back someday. =)

Friday, June 10, 2005

here lies me

Sometimes discoveries come because you're exploring new territory. This isn't like that... I mean, alot of new things are happening to me, and in some sense I'm definitely experiencing new things in new places, but I think alot of my discoveries are due to changes in me, rather than in my surroundings.

For instance: tonight, for the first time, I became aware of how attractive humility and vulnerability are. I don't even mean romantically, necessarily... I just know for sure that humility and vulnerability draw me. You could say they stir me, or that they resonate.

Whatever you call it, it's pretty sweet, especially if it can inspire a new blog post.

As I posted on my mice-base: this new phase has left me feeling like I've left me. Somewhere back there, *points vaguely behind him* I transitioned into something, forgetting to bring with me the things I've loved. Not that there are many things about me that I love, in fact there are probably only one or two (and if there are two, I probably haven't discovered the second yet), but I just... I used to really blog. Seriously. Look at those Posts of the Months!! I want to post stuff like that again.

Ah, well... who knows what will happen? Maybe Vanguard will reawaken that particular passion. I really hope so. If not, I may have to recreate some dramatic events of the past, and that might not be worth it. I don't know.

I'll find what I left behind, and even if I don't bring it here with me, I'll at least mark the spot where it fell. Hence this title.