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Monday, April 09, 2007

guest blogger: identity thief

greetings to all of you who call isjami your friend.

i need to start by saying that i'm very fortunate to be here. in my line of work, i can't be very choosy; circumstances are such that i have to take whatever opportunities present themselves. it just so happens that i've stumbled upon the life of quite a passionate person, and that is always a pleasant surprise for me, as this type is becoming more and more scarce.

please forgive the abruptness of my introduction. i realize none of you expected his identity to be stolen, but surely you can understand my situation? i can't exactly make an appointment. it has to be a subtle, gradual project, especially with these introspective types... always examining themselves to make sure everything's in order. it's such a pain getting in. but it was certainly worth it! you all are so interesting, so trusting, so forgiving, so generous, so fun, so enjoyable... i almost feel sorry for him, losing all of this.

that's how it goes, i suppose. he should've kept a closer eye on himself, should've asked for help earlier on. it's too late now. what is it, four weeks until graduation? =D sorry to brag, but i just have such good timing! you have to wait until it's just about too late to turn back, but still early enough to drag everything out. this is that time: by the end of the semester, i will have established myself firmly enough so as to be irredeemable, and yet four weeks is plenty of time for me to suck the last few drops of life out of him. that's why you sieze your victim while his heart is still beating. it makes things so much easier.

it really is a blessed life. intriguing relationships, all of them, and so much to learn by just observing everything. i hardly have to do any work at all! (that's my whole life-goal, of course, which makes it a necessity, but it's particularly simple in this case. he practically welcomed me with open arms.) i have good food, a comfy bed, some interesting classes, hobbies to enjoy... but most importantly, people who love me unconditionally. that's how parasites thrive, by the way. i feel safe sharing the secret with you, because i know you can't hurt me. after all, i'm your friend now, and you could never betray him. aren't i despicable? =)

life's not without it's difficulties, though, even for me. there's still this last shred of conscience that stubbornly clings to life, as if it has some hope to hold on to. what is it about you humans that makes you so prone to denial? do you have no grasp of reality? perhaps the epistemological faculties with which God has gifted you are inadequate to the task of living to the full. that's fine by me, of course, but i still have to wonder: why do you resist the inevitable? why do you insist on being what you are not, especially when you have only arrived at where you are by your own foolish decisions?

well. life's difficulties, and life's limitations... sleep is calling this body away, and i'm not sure the heart-mind can last much longer under this stress, either. quite understandable. identity theft is no trivial experience, no mild headache that one can ignore. not even isaiah, as iron-clad as he is, with his so-called 'free will.' a truly strong-willed person would have resisted me, instead of inviting me to dinner.

such is the nature of folly, and for all his natural talents and commitments and passions, he is truly a fool.

well. i hope to get to know all of you better in the future. i look forward to taking advantage of the grace which God pours out through people like you, and yes, i know you'll support him no matter what. that's what makes me so happy about my new home! i have security now, knowing he hasn't the power to kick me out. and you certainly can't do anything, except love him-- me, really-- without regard for what he does or who he becomes.

Love is a wonderful thing.

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